Mariya Grinina
Your guide into devotion
A practice of returning - to the body, to intimacy, to pure love, to the truth hidden in the shadows waiting to be met
My Story
Welcome to my world - where the erotic and the spiritual are not separate paths, but the same one — leading you back to wholeness.
I have been in devotional practice since I was 12 years old.
Yoga, meditation, tantric principles, daily ritual — long before I had language for any of it, I knew my mind-body was where my power lies.
That alignment made me a successful entrepreneur.
By the age of 23, as a recent immigrant with no traditional business education, I was named among the top 10 young tech founders in the UK — the only woman on the list.
Success came easily, almost effortlessly — not because I was lucky, but because I was whole. As I kept up with my daily devotional practice and inner work, the right people magnetised to me — they offered support, invested in me, became part of my team.
My creativity and my limitless beliefs about my own potential made me unstoppable,
despite being the youngest, the least experienced, and the least privileged person in the room.
Then, slowly, I let the practice slip in favour of chasing more of what the success seemed to promise — more growth, more proof, more momentum. I convinced myself I had to work harder, think more, be more strategic, more "serious," to keep achieving.
I told myself my body and my practice could wait. They couldn't.
Piece by piece, everything I'd built on that foundation began to hollow out, until I burned out completely — lost my creativity, my magnetism, the very thing that had made any of it possible in the first place.
At my lowest,
I understood what my devotional practice had actually been all along:
not a nice complement to my success, but its real foundation.
I retrained as a certified embodiment and somatic coach, because I wanted to understand — properly, this time — what I had once lived only by instinct, so I could help myself, and others, live the most fulfilling lives possible.
What I discovered — for myself, and later for so many of my clients — is that
the most direct path to transformation doesn't start in the mind.
It starts at the root: our first chakra, the seat of our lifeforce, sexual energy.
Trying to free ourselves from limitation, pain, and old trauma imprints through the mind alone is slow, and for most people, nearly impossible to sustain.
The body offers a more direct way in
— and nowhere more powerfully than through our erotic energy.
That is why I now work with sexuality, intimacy, and erotic energy as the entry point into a much larger journey: from the root to the crown, from the primal to the awakened, toward freedom, love, purpose, and fulfillment.
This is not theory for me. I have lived both sides of it.
Today, my life is beautiful and I am living my purpose. Iead some of the most sought-after retreats and intimacy events, support hundreds of women through my online courses at Feel, and guide women, men, and couples through life-changing transformation in my 1:1 coaching containers. I am engaged to the love of my life, we are renovating our dream home together, and I keep creating from a place of alignment and love.
Ways to work with me
1:1 Coaching
For women ready to come home to their body and their desire, without apology.
For men ready to reconnect with their erotic as sacred & ground deeper in their power and presence.
For couples ready to nurture the sexual magnetism and depth between them.
Wherever you're starting from, there's a door that meets you there — each journey shaped around your unique path and desire.
Explore Coaching →Retreats
Deepen intimacy with yourself or your partner
Awaken erotic energy as something sacred
Non-sexual — embodied, educational, held in high integrity
Boundaries & sovereignty taught and protected at every step
An intimate, curated group — singles and couples welcome
The group itself becomes a mirror for your own growth — a journey unlike anything else.
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How this works
You want an extraordinary life. A body you feel at home in. Deep intimacy. Pleasure. Magnetism. A sense of purpose, and the courage to share your gifts. The most beautiful relationships you can imagine.
That life is already within you — not as a metaphor, but literally. My work is not about adding something you lack. It's about releasing what's in the way: the trauma imprints, the beliefs, the contractions in your own body that have been keeping that life from reaching the surface.
If you've done therapy or mind-based work before, you already know its limits. Understanding a pattern is not the same as being free of it. This work goes further, because it goes deeper than thought — into the subconscious and the body, the nervous system, the soma, where those patterns actually live. Real change happens when it shifts on a cellular level, not just a conceptual one.
That's why this work draws on multiple lineages, not one method:
Somatic coaching, breathwork, psychedelic breathwork journeys, nervous system regulation, and trauma-informed embodiment practices, so change happens through the body, not just around it.
Family constellations and inner child healing, to meet the roots of what still runs the present.
Tantric principles, conscious and authentic relating, couples rituals, cultivation of sexual energy, sacred sexuality rituals, and self-pleasure practice — treating the erotic as a path, not a taboo.
Somatic and hypnotic tools to recode limiting beliefs into ones with no ceiling.
None of this follows a fixed formula. In every session, I draw intuitively from whichever of these lineages your goals — and your body, in that exact moment — are actually calling for. The result is never generic. It's built entirely around you.
What becomes possible
She had it all by every visible measure — a fabulous career, beauty, a community that adored her. But success had gone quiet inside her. What she actually longed for was family, and a sacred union she'd never let herself admit she wanted. We released the beliefs keeping her from it: what love she believed she deserved, the father wound underneath her avoidant attachment, the contraction that kept her from truly receiving. As her self-worth and boundaries rose, so did her standards — she stopped settling for men who didn't match her own worth. She completed this work, and met a partner who treats her like the queen she always was.
She arrived after a long, abusive relationship — her confidence gone, her body image distorted, fully disconnected from her sexuality and her femininity. She knew she wanted more, and she was ready to actually heal, not just cope. We worked through years of inherited trauma imprints and limiting beliefs, from childhood and from the relationship itself, bringing her back into her body — grounded, safe, and finally able to feel pleasure and aliveness she didn't know were still possible for her. She started a new business, began dating again, and is, in her own words, excited about her life for the first time in years.
She'd already built a serious career in finance, and now wanted to launch her own business — but old beliefs about money, worth, and visibility kept her small in exactly the moment she needed to be seen. She knew, on some level, that her real potential lived in her erotic and sexual energy, not in strategy alone. We healed the sexual trauma limiting her, and helped her learn to direct that life force toward creativity, magnetism, and success — while holding real boundaries around her own feminine power. She's now building her company while treating her own devotion as a genuine spiritual path, not just an idea in her head.
He was successful, accomplished, and had everything by any outward measure. Attracting beautiful women was never the hard part — feeling real depth with any of them was. At the Eternal Devotion retreat, he came to understand the truth underneath it: the lack wasn't in them. It was in him — specifically, in how he'd learned to relate. Not through performance, not through getting or grabbing more, but through presence, vulnerability, and real connection. Sex stopped being something he performed, and became a way to grow personally and spiritually.
He came wanting to awaken his erotic energy consciously — to learn real tantric practice, to become a lover defined by presence, not performance. First, we released what had been conditioning him for years: religion, family, society, all the quiet rules about his body and his role in relationships that were never actually his own. Underneath all of it was his essence, waiting — and once he reconnected with it, his erotic energy became something he could cultivate, direct, and offer as a gift, not something he had to prove. He's now in a new relationship with a woman who meets his full masculine presence — and together, they're experiencing a level of intimacy he didn't know was possible.
They came to me after their third child, at a point where their sexual connection had quietly gone missing. They both knew their relationship was the most important thing in their lives and chose to work for it, and the woman intuitively felt tantric sex could be the answer for them. Through somatic exploration and tantric sexuality training, they didn't just rebuild that connection — they found one more exciting and full than before, with more depth, expanded states of pleasure, and full body orgasms.
Want to explore working together?
All of my retreats, events, and coaching are held by application only. This work is not for everyone — and because I want to be of the highest service to those who would most benefit from this approach, discovery is essential.
Take the short quiz below to find your path, then book a discovery call — where we'll find out, together, if and how we should work together.